another blogthing

I only did this to avoid cleaning my apartment.

You are pure, moral, and adaptable. You tend to blend into your surroundings. Shy on the outside, you're outspoken to your friends. You believe that you live a virtuous life... And you tend to judge others with a harsh eye. As a result, people tend to crave your approval.

The World's Shortest Personality Test

wow

If I had planned a crazy weekend for my life, I don't think I could have dreamed this one up. Friday started out very normal, very good. I worked at the restaurant and then went to Mercury to help build a tree that is the centerpiece for their upcoming show, Jane Eyre. Let's just say that sculpting chicken wire around 18' planks of wood and then coating muslin in a glue-water mixture wasn't really my idea of a good time. Of course, it was Mercury and I had a blast. Always do there.

I fled the tree and came home to get ready to go out with the Aida folks to the Midnight Martini Show. I've seen the show many, many times, but it's always different with each group. My friend Laurel was the guest vocalist, so it made the show that much better for me. Of course, my stomach was in knots the whole time in anticipation of what I had promised I would do -- I was finally going to ask out the guy I've had a crush on for a while. I'm not the smoothest operator, but with a little prodding by Laurel, all went well. :)

Today. Well. I woke up late (wonderful) and went to the restaurant to talk with Elizabeth about my potential new job. In a couple of weeks, I'll be returning to the corporate world. :) In Akron. :( I'll make do... We discussed details of that, discussed her love life, my lack thereof. The standards with me and Elizabeth. As I was leaving, I got a call from my Mercury friend Molly. A mutual friend of ours has been feeling sick for a while and after a week of doctors, has finally been diagnosed with Leukemia. This has set my whole weekend into a tailspin. I'm sure that he will pull through with flying colors, but it's just such a blow. I can't help wanting to be with him and trying to make him forget what he's going through.

Because of this news, my planned crazy weekend has turned into a staying home crazy weekend. Baby, you're on my mind, in my thoughts and prayers. I love you.

12 inches lighter

I'm actually amazed I didn't chicken out. Today was the first time washing my lack of hair... very odd.

Callback for Beauty and the Beast at the Beck last night... it went well. I can never tell anything though. I'm way to hard on myself, but I think it could have gone much better for me. My reading was crappy. :) Tra la la.

I hung out at my mom's house most of the day today. In 95 degree weather, no air conditioning is a big deal.

new start

Today I'm cutting most of my hair off to donate it to Locks of Love. I think it's been about 10 years since I've had such a drastic cut. This has got me to thinking about my life: about choices I've made; where I am and how I got here. So today, I'm making a fresh start. I know that no one is perfect and therefore no one's choices can be, but I'm going to try and make better choices and hopefully be a better person. Oh yes... with a better haircut. Life just has to get better, right?

too much alcohol

You Are 20% Weird

Not enough to scare other people... But sometimes you scare yourself.

How Weird Are You?

I really would have thought I'm more weird than that. Whatever.

I've had a pretty busy week: work every day, show every night. Cast parties three nights in a row. Oy. I ended up going to an audition on Saturday (my day to sleep in...) but all was good because I ran into the guy I'm crushing on. ;)

Last night's show was good. Very odd though. The girl who played the Zebra had to miss for a wedding, so we had a replacement. She did very, very well, but it was a different dynamic for me not having Molly there. Because the Zebra and Giraffe do everything in the show together, I think it probably affected me more than anyone. But Kristen did very well. :) She's such a hard worker to cram all this learning into a week when the rest of the cast had three.

Ended up leaving last night's cast party (the infamous one at Cindi Verbelun's) to meet up with my friend Cheryl. This doesn't happen often, but last night something was in the air. We were hit on left and right. I know there are girls out there that go to bars exclusively to meet guys, but I just go to talk to the people I'm with. After finding out that there was no possibility of getting laid, the guys hitting on us reacted in different ways. Two of them stayed and talked to us... one even walked us partly back to our cars (partly because we didn't want him walking with us in the first place). One guy started ranting and raving about how we weren't worth his time and we were white trash pieces of shit. That really made me laugh. What gets me is that guys think that girls are going to take that kind of talk. Well, the New Yorker in me came out full force. No way am I going to take that! By the end, his friends were all apologizing for him and calling him a loser. Whatever.

So today is officially my day of rest. Sure. Except that there's an early birthday party for me and a couple other Mercury people tonight at the Masterson's house. More food, more alcohol. Wow. This is my life.

in mourning

James ‘Scotty’ Doohan dies at age 85 - MSNBC.com

Rest in peace, Scotty

harry potter

I finished the book last night at about 2 in the morning. I'm tired as hell today, but couldn't go to bed without finishing it. Loved the book, but I'm not happy. If/when you read it, you'll understand.

big weekend

It's the weekend I've been waiting for... Charlie and the Chocolate Factory opened and the new Harry Potter book is out!

I saw the movie at midnight on Thursday. Can I just say, "Fabulous." Johnny Depp and Tim Burton never fail to make a great picture. Being a fan of the book, I loved it's twisted nature. But, I have a few reservations. I see why they would have put a back-story in for Willy Wonka, but I don't think it was completely necessary. I thought it explained Willy so much more -- a chocolatier who wasn't allowed to eat chocolate and never really having a childhood now obsessed with chocolate and not knowing how to relate to children. Got it. But I really didn't like the extended ending. Rather that just take the glass elevator and get the whole family, there had to be more conflict. Um, okay. See where you were going but I would have preferred the original ending. All that said, absolutely adored it. Loved Johnny Depp's character, loved the movie and laughed a lot.

I'm only on the fourth chapter of Harry Potter, so that one will have to wait. At least I have it. :)

Last night's opening of Just So went really well. Everyone seemed to be on their game and the audience enjoyed it. Unfortunately, our lead actress sprained her ankle last night, so we're not really sure where it leaves us for tonight's show. As my friend Cheryl would say, "eep."

being needed

I'm watching the DVD of Bewitched right now (don't ask... I have a pirate connection) and studying my lines for Just So (which previews tonight... eek!). It's really interesting. In both of these, a man tells a woman that he needs her and all of her anger and questioning just melt away. Is it really true that all we want is to be needed? When someone says "I can't live without you?", shouldn't that be the ideal we all strive for? I've never had that kind of relationship. We all think that we can't live without someone, but we can. But when elderly couples die within a few days, weeks or months of each other is just beautiful. They really did need each other and couldn't live alone. Beautiful.

my fair lady sweeps the cassidy awards!

The Beehive girls performed at the Cassidy Awards show tonight (Pic to right-SO good to see you all. Miss you to pieces). Alas, none of my friends from Godspell won because, as Keli put it, My Fair Lady was the latest show and the old people couldn't remember beyond that. Thankfully there was an open bar and so many good friends. We all had a wonderful time.

I went to the zoo with Cheryl today. Okay, so the zoo is only $9. I don't know why I haven't gone every month of my life in Cleveland. We had a wonderful time. We didn't get to see 2 exhibits because of my time constraints, but we're determined to go again. Not surprisingly, the little irish girl in me is burnt to a crisp. My sunburn is just now starting to hurt and I can't imagine what it's going to be like tomorrow in the shower.

Rehearsal tomorrow for Just So from 1-7. I'm not sure what I'm doing after that yet. If I feel up to it, I might crash the Aida tech rehearsal. Might just come home and chill.

brainwashing 101

Oh, Katie, Katie, Katie. I have to say that I completely understand being so in love that you lose yourself. It happens to the best of us. But to have a representative of your fiancee's religion in an interview with you to tell you what to say? Come on. That's just stupid.

the article

good for you

New York Times reporter Judy Miller was sent to jail on Wednesday for not revealing her source. I say good for her.

ABC News Story

if she were fine she wouldn't get a gin enema

Once again, from the best website ever, Overheard in New York:

Girl #1: Has anyone heard from Megan lately?
Girl #2: No.
Girl #1: I mean her away message for three days has been, "Break out the turkey basters and gin buckets!"
Girl #3: I'm sure she's fine.

--Staten Island Ferry

busy

I have a very long week ahead of me: work every day, rehearsal every night. I get to sleep in on Saturday and Sunday, so that's a bonus. Patron party at the Cassidy Theatre Saturday night with open bar and free food, so the sleeping in on Sunday will definitely help.

I would like to give a shout out to my little Queequeg, Cheryl, for being a wonderful psychoanalyst. Cheryl, I don't know what he's thinking either. (See? I didn't spend too much time on my blog like I said I would...)

end of the dick

Moby Dick closed today. I really want to thank all the cast members for making this such a drama-free show. Everyone got along so well and we all made each other laugh time and again. Here are a few things I will especially miss:

1. "Ladies and gentlemen, Hannah is going to Yale."


2. Singing "Light your bootay" with Cheryl every night.


3. Santa Dave coming backstage with the megaphone screaming that we only had one hour until the audience arrives.


4. Seeing Phil in his underwear everytime I turned around... although I'm sure there is more of that to come in Just So ;)


5. Putting the underwear on Mike's face every night and watching Cheryl tie him up so wonderfully.


6. Calling up to the Condo girls.


7. Doing the Moby Dick cheer: When I say Moby you say Dick, Moby (Penis!).


8. Hearing Kevin declare what a mess he is. (No, honey. You're perfect.)


9. Crotch chopping Paul and having Paul crotch chop me. We never broke each other, Paulie!


10. Kristen constantly making me laugh as Stubb

Most of all, I will miss each and every one of your smiling faces. Thank you so much for making this show something I will never forget. Holla.

doll

So I had a all of two beers at the Rush tonight, but I don't think that completely explains why I just spent 1/2 hour creating a "me" doll on this website. That aside, this is my little creation. And, yes, I would wear this outfit time and again. Give it a go on your own: eLouai's Candybar Doll Maker. Good waste of time.

Speaking of a good waste of time, I found a new website, Double Agent, with a must-read article: 50 things girls want guys to know.

And here's a little song for you.

Hello, boys and girls.
This is your old pal, Stinky Wizzleteats.
This is a song about a whale. No!
This is a song about being happy!
That's right!
It's the Happy Happy Joy Joy song!

Happy Happy Joy Joy Happy Happy Joy Joy
Happy Happy Joy Joy Happy Happy Joy Joy
Happy Happy Joy Joy Happy Happy Joy Joy
Happy Happy Joy Joy Joy!

I don't think you're happy enough!
That's right! I'll teach you to be happy!
I'll teach your grandmother to suck eggs!
Now, boys and girls, let's try it again!

Happy Happy Joy Joy Happy Happy Joy Joy
Happy Happy Joy Joy Happy Happy Joy Joy
Happy Happy Joy Joy Happy Happy Joy Joy
Happy Happy Joy Joy Joy!

If you ain't the grandaddy of all liars!
The little critters of nature... They don't know that they're ugly!
That's very funny, a fly marrying a bumblebee!
I told you I'd shoot! But you didn't believe me!
Why didn't you believe me?!

Happy Happy Joy Joy Happy Happy Joy Joy
Happy Happy Joy Joy Happy Happy Joy Joy
Happy Happy Joy Joy Happy Happy Joy Joy

Happy Happy Happy Happy
Happy Happy Happy Happy
Happy Happy Joy Joy Joy!

fate

When I first started this website, it was under the domain fateiskind.com. ... the "fate is kind" as a reference to When You Wish Upon a Star. I've since lost the domain (obviously) and I think I'm losing my faith in fate. Is it possible that all actions are previously determained and we're simply following a pre-ordained path? Are there many paths and each has it's own outcome? I'm starting to think there's nothing in it at all.

I grew up in the church. Although now I think organized religion is a bunch of crap, I still would like to believe in a higher being. It's comforting to think that somewhere out there, a deity is watching over me and directing my course. I still talk to God... not on a regular basis, but more like "What the f@$*, God?" But is it possible that He's directing me through my course -- introducing me to so many people along the way. It's true that people change you along the way, for better or worse. With so many "choices" in life, why am I the person I am today?

On another note, cigarette prices went up 75 cents a pack today. Looks like I might have to stop smoking. Again.