fate

When I first started this website, it was under the domain fateiskind.com. ... the "fate is kind" as a reference to When You Wish Upon a Star. I've since lost the domain (obviously) and I think I'm losing my faith in fate. Is it possible that all actions are previously determained and we're simply following a pre-ordained path? Are there many paths and each has it's own outcome? I'm starting to think there's nothing in it at all.

I grew up in the church. Although now I think organized religion is a bunch of crap, I still would like to believe in a higher being. It's comforting to think that somewhere out there, a deity is watching over me and directing my course. I still talk to God... not on a regular basis, but more like "What the f@$*, God?" But is it possible that He's directing me through my course -- introducing me to so many people along the way. It's true that people change you along the way, for better or worse. With so many "choices" in life, why am I the person I am today?

On another note, cigarette prices went up 75 cents a pack today. Looks like I might have to stop smoking. Again.