Subject : clueless
Posted Date: : Sep 19, 2005 9:51 PM
i only created this page as a favor to my friend... no idea why. i can usually be found on my website: http://www.geocities.com/aecollier/
cheers.
-a.
Subject : 174 - jiminy cricket!
Posted Date: : Sep 22, 2005 3:17 PM
(this is further proof that i have way too much free time)
Put an X by the movies you've seen.
If you get more than 70, you're a movie whore.
COPY AND REPOST! PLACE YOUR SCORE IN THE SUBJECT LINE
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean
() Boondock Saints
(x) The Mexican
(x) Fight Club
() Starsky and Hutch
(x) Neverending Story
(x) Blazing Saddles
(x) Garden State
(x) The Princess Bride
(x) Young Frankenstien
(x) AnchorMan
(x) Napoleon Dynamite
(x) Saw
() White Noise
(x) White Oleander
(x) Anger Management
Total here: 13
() 50 First Dates
() Jason X
(x) Scream
(x) Scream 2
(x) Scream 3
(x) Scary Movie
(x) Scary Movie 2
(x) Scary Movie 3
(x) American Pie
(x) American Pie 2
(x) American Wedding
(x) Harry Potter
(x) Harry Potter 2
(x) Harry Potter 3
(x) Resident Evil I
() Resident Evil 2
(x) The Wedding Singer
() Little Black Book
Total here: 14
(x) The Village
(x) Donnie Darko
() Lilo & Stitch
(x) Finding Nemo
(x) Finding Neverland
(x) 13 Ghosts
(x) Signs
(x) The Grinch
(x) Texas Chainsaw Massacre
() White Chicks
(x) Butterfly Effect
(x) Thirteen Going on 30
(x) I Robot
(x) Dodgeball
(x) Universal Soldier
(x) A Series Of Unfortunate Events
() Along Came A Spider
(x) Deep impact
Total here: 15
(x) KingPin
(x)Never Been Kissed
(x) Meet The Parents
(x) Meet the Fockers
() Eight Crazy Nights
() A Cinderella Story
(x) The Terminal
() The Lizzie McGuire Movie
() Passport to Paris
(x) Dumb & Dumber
() Dumb & Dumberer
(x) Final Destination
() Final Destination 2
(x) Halloween
(x) The Ring
(x) The Ring 2
() Harold & Kumar Go to White Castle
(x) Practical Magic
(x) Chicago
(x) Ghost Ship
(x) From Hell
(x) Hellboy
(x) Secret Window
(x) I Am Sam
(x) The Whole Nine Yards
(x) The Whole Ten Yards
(x) The Day After Tomorrow
(x) Child's Play
() Bride of Chucky
(x) Ten Things I Hate About You
() Just Married
(x) Gothika
(x) Nightmare on Elm Street
(x) Sixteen Candles
() Bad Boys
() Bad Boys 2
() Joy Ride
(x) Seven (SE7EN)
(x) Oceans Eleven
(x) Oceans Twelve
(x) Identity
Total here: 29
() Lone Star
(x) Predator I
(x) Predator II
(x) Independence Day
(x) Cujo
(x) A Bronx Tale
() Darkness Falls
(x) Christine
(x) ET
(x) Children of the Corn
() My Boss' Daughter
() Maid in Manhattan
(x) Frailty
() Best Bet
(x) How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
(x) She's All That
() Calendar Girls
(x) Sideways
(x) Mars Attacks
Total here:13
(x) Event Horizon
(x) Ever After
(x) Forrest Gump
(x) Big Trouble in Little China
(x) X-men 1
(x) X-men 2
(x) Catch Me If You Can
(x)The Others
() Freaky Friday
() Reign of Fire
() The Hot Chick
(x)Swimfan
() Miracle
(x) Old School
(x) Ray
(x) The Notebook
() K-Pax
Total here: 12
(x) Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
(x) Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
(x) Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
() A Walk to Remember
() Boogeyman
() Hitch
() Back Door Sluts 9
() Anal Acres 1
() Anal Acres 2
() B-Cup Divas
(x) The Fifth Element
(x) Star Wars episode I The Phantom Menace
(x) Star Wars episode II Attack of The Clones
(x) Star Wars episode III Revenge of The Sith
(x) Star Wars episode IV A New Hope
(x) Star Wars episode V The Empire Strikes Back
(x) Star Wars episode VI Return of The Jedi
() Troop Beverly Hills
(x) Swimming with Sharks
(x) Air Force One
() For Richer or Poorer
(x) Trainspotting
() People Under the Stairs
(x) Blue Velvet
(x) Sound of Music
(x) Parent Trap
(x) The Burbs
(x) The Terminator
(x) Empire Records
(x) SLC Punk
(x) Meet Joe Black
() Wild girls
(x) A Clockwork Orange
() The Order
(x) Spiderman
(x) Spiderman 2
(x) Amelie
Total here: 25
(x) Mean Girls
(x) Shrek
(x) Shrek 2
(x) The Incredibles
() Collateral
() The Fast & The Furious
() 2 Fast 2 Furious
(x) Sky Captain Of The World Of Tomorrow
(x) Closer
Total here:6
(x) Titanic
(x) Saved
(x) Bowling For Columbine
(x) Farenheit 9/11
(x) The Sixth Sense
(x) Artificial intelligence (AI)
(x) Love actually
() Shutter
() Ella Enchanted
(x)Princess diaries 1
() Princess diaries 2
() Constantine
(x) Million Dollar Baby
() Envy
(x) Eurotrip
() Malibu's Most wanted
(x) Big Daddy
(x) Black Sheep
(x) The Breakfast Club
(x) West Side Story
Total here: 14
(x) A Christmas Story
() Spanglish
(x) Pulp Fiction
() Sleepover
(x) The Evil Dead
() Killer Klowns From Outer Space
() The Seed of Chucky
(x) Vanilla Sky
(x) Nightmare Before Christmas
(x) Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind
(x)Interview With The Vampire
(x)The Crow
(x)Purple Rain
(x)Reservoir Dogs
(x)Wayne's World
Total here:11
(x) Wayne's World 2
(x) 21 Grams
(x) Blow
(x) Edward Scissorhands
(x) Clerks
(x) Beauty and the Beast
() Guess Who
() Monster In-Law
(x) Elf
(x) Stuart Little
(x) Stuart Little 2
(x) Mall Rats
(x)Chasing Amy
(x) Dogma
(x) Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back
Total here:13
(x) Beetlejuice
() The Last Samurai
(x) The Amityville Horror
(x) The Aviator
(x) Romeo and Juliet
() Barbershop
() Beauty Shop
(x) Legally Blonde
(x) Legally Blonde 2
(x) The Forgotten
() Confessions Of A Teenage Drama Queen
(x) Grudge
(x) Dirty Dancing
Total Here:9
Subject : *sigh*
Posted Date: : Sep 23, 2005 1:08 AM
Sonnet 29
When in disgrace with fortune and men's eyes
I all alone beweep my outcast state,
And trouble deaf heaven with my bootless cries,
And look upon myself, and curse my fate,
Wishing me like to one more rich in hope,
Featur'd like him, like him with friends possess'd,
Desiring this man's art, and that man's scope,
With what I most enjoy contented least;
Yet in these thoughts my self almost despising,
Haply I think on thee,-- and then my state,
Like to the lark at break of day arising
From sullen earth, sings hymns at heaven's gate,;
For thy sweet love remember'd such wealth brings
That then I scorn to change my state with kings.
Subject : blog me this
Posted Date: : Sep 23, 2005 1:55 AM
I always feel like I'm cheating on my other blog when I write in this one. So visit that one every once and a while and make it feel loved, okay? :)
Subject : i eat paste
Posted Date: : Sep 23, 2005 3:26 AM
looking back at that long movie list, it looks like i'm smart and i don't like porn. what a mis-representation. ;)
Subject : i really don't smoke that much. really!
Posted Date: : Sep 23, 2005 5:51 PM
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Subject : i love sleep
Posted Date: : Sep 24, 2005 5:41 PM
For some silly reason, the night before last I only slept 2 hours. This seemed like a completely reasonable choice until about halfway through my shift at the restaurant. I was doing well in the beginning (thanks to Mountain Dew and a Snickers bar)... singing the songs while walking through the dining room... dancing at my tables (no, I don't work at a strip joint)... but around 1 pm I started fading and went downhill. Somehow, I managed to get a lot of errands done yesterday (including paying an obnoxious amount for gas). I went to bed WAY too early last night and got up fabulously late today. Going to see Urinetown at the Beck tonight, so I'll see anyone after for drinks.
This is a oddly entertaining site I found earlier today: Rocky Horror in 30 seconds with Bunnies
Oh, side note. I'm watching Drumline right now. For anyone who was ever in a marching band, I think it's a must see. I can't explain why I'm addicted to it.
Subject : urinetown
Posted Date: : Sep 25, 2005 12:38 AM
If you haven't done so, Urinetown is a must see. Proud to say I didn't pee my pants, but I cackled outloud for a good two hours. ;)
Subject : anger
Posted Date: : Sep 25, 2005 3:37 PM
It takes a whole lot for me to get mad. Takes a lot more beyond that for me to yell. Well, my annoying manager at work was blessed with the honor of my yelling today around 10 am. I'm used to dealing with this twit, but today Tony takes the cake. Congrats, Tony. You're an asshole. He finally backed off when I threatened to quit and talk to the owner about him. When people are put in positions of "power" (I use the word loosely here), why do they become idiots?
I was commissioned to do the slideshow for my brother's wedding reception this weekend and I'm starting to loose my mind. Anyone have words of advice?
Subject : searching
Posted Date: : Sep 25, 2005 11:04 PM
You know when you're looking for a cd to listen to, a movie to watch or something to eat? You don't know exactly what you want, but you know as soon as you see it that it's what you've been searching for. I'm having those feelings a lot lately. Like the past month of my life. I know there is something out there waiting for me and I just hope I know it when I see it. I'm hoping that it's going to sustain this hunger I have inside of me.
Side note: If you've never heard Jerry Springer: the Opera, catch me and I'll make you a copy. Funny, funny shit. And, yes, it's exactly what it sounds like: an opera based on the Jerry Springer show.
Subject : good intentions get you nowhere
Posted Date: : Sep 27, 2005 3:29 AM
Hmm. Well, I just got off an AIM conversation with my friend Phil. I can't help but feel partly responsible for what he's going through. I set him up with one of my best friends and she dumped him a couple of weeks ago. I saw her on Saturday night and she didn't say anything about it, but gave me that "do you know and are you going to say something to me" look. I don't know their whole situation, so I have no right whatsoever to comment on it, but I feel bad for the heartache that Phils feeling.
Since Phil is EXTREMELY hot, I brought up the "hey, you can always go gay" for my fabulous gays out there. Sorry boys, no luck. ;)
Ooh. My brother is cooking bacon and it smells GOOOOOD. I'm off to make myself a hotdog.
Subject : beautiful beauty
Posted Date: : Sep 27, 2005 6:00 PM
For those who haven't seen it yet, this is the set design for Beauty and the Beast at the Beck. I can honestly say I've never seen such a beautiful set in all my time in Cleveland theater...
Subject : theatre survey
Posted Date: : Sep 28, 2005 1:38 AM
... because i'm bored
REAL NAME: Amiee Collier
STAGE NAME: nah
LAST SHOW YOU ADDED TO YOUR RESUME: Giraffe in Just So at Mercury Summer Stock
LAST SHOW YOU AUDITIONED FOR: it sounds horrible to say, but i haven't actually auditioned for a show since Moby Dick. i go to callbacks! does that count? then Beauty and the Beast
DID YOU GET INTO IT: yes on both counts :)
LAST SONG YOU USED AT AN AUDITION: stranger to the rain for Moby Dick
FAVORITE THEATRE (VENUE): Beck because they're close and NWT because it's always life-altering
FAVORITE PLAY: I'm DYING to do The Women
FAVORITE MUSICAL: this isn't a safe question... Sunday in the Park with George and Chess
FAVORITE ROLE & FROM WHAT SHOW: I'm so confused. I'm going to answer both ways... dream role: Dot in Sunday in the Park with George and Florence in Chess... roles i've done: Emma Goldman in Ragtime and Anna in The King and I
YOUR GOAL IN SHOW BUSINESS: Been there, done that as far as New York. I'm enjoying what I do right now.
FAVORITE DIRECTOR: Kevin Kelly is a ball of energy and Bob Navis taught me a lot about myself
WHAT WAS YOUR VERY FIRST SHOW: Scout in To Kill a Mockingbird :)
HAVE YOU EVER HAD A DANCE SOLO: Yes. still don't know why...
HAVE YOU EVER HAD A SINGING SOLO: Yes
HAVE YOU EVER BEEN THE LAST PERSON TO TAKE A BOW: Yes
NAME A SHOW YOU'VE DONE MORE THAN TWO TIMES: none i can think of
HAVE YOU BEEN TO NEW YORK: lived it
HAVE YOU BEEN TO LA: no
SCARIEST PART OF AN AUDITION: I don't really get scared anymore. I don't like waiting for the casting decision though. That's stressful.
BEST PART OF AN AUDITION: I love callbacks and making a fool of myself in dance auditions.
NAME A SHOW YOU WOULD NEVER DO AGAIN: I don't think there is one... hmm.
NAME A SHOW YOU COULD DO FOR YEARS: Getting ready to do Beehive for a second time, same cast, same director. I could do this show forever... :)
NAME A SHOW YOU WOULD LOVE TO DO BUT HAVE NEVER BEEN IN: Now I think I answered that question above in the wrong tense. Ooops.
NAME A PERSON YOU'D LIKE TO WORK WITH AGAIN: I'd work with Kevin Kelly in every show if I could.
WHAT ARE YOU AUDITIONING FOR NEXT: I'm booked through April, but looking forward to Chess auditions at NWT.
HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN PERFORMING: Since I was 14... Freshman year of high school
DO YOU CARRY YOUR HEADSHOTS AROUND WITH YOU: Ew, no.
DO YOU KEEP IN TOUCH WITH PAST CAST MEMBERS: Yes. My lovely, lovely butterflies.
ON A SCALE OF 1-10 HOW IMPORTANT IS GETTING PAID: I hate questions like this. I guess it depends on how far I have to drive. My car is a gas-guzzler.
WHAT IS YOUR MOST MEMORABLE PERFORMANCE: Every performace of both Ragtime and The King and I were so amazing and so touching.
WHAT'S SOMETHING EMBARRASSING OR UNEXPECTED THAT HAPPENED TO YOU WHILE ON STAGE: Fine. I'll admit it. My right tit popped out during Beehive once. Only on the last show when everyone was making jokes about it, did I actually topstick myself in that damn costume.
WHO IS THE MOST DIFFICULT PERSON (ON STAGE OR OFF) THAT YOU HAVE EVER WORKED WITH: I have an answer to this, but I'll keep that to myself. No reason to call people out on their past actions.
EVER BEEN NAKED ON STAGE?: About the closest was for Pam in Baby. I was in a t-shirt and underwear.
WHO OR WHAT IS YOUR GREATEST INSPIRATION OR INFLUENCE? People I know personally: Kevin Kelly, Bob Navis, Fred Sternfeld. Idols: Bernadette Peters.
IF YOU COULD BE A RICH FAMOUS PORN STAR OR A STRUGGLING THEATRE ACTOR WHICH WOULD YOU CHOOSE? Lol... i only laugh because they've started a rumor at work that I'm a former porn star. Yeah... I'd struggle.
BEST PROFESSIONAL SHOW(S) YOU'VE SEEN: Broadway version of The King and I (was forced to go 6 times by my brother who saw it 25 times, but it was beautiful), I saw the original cast of Miss Saigon and loved it.
WORST PROFESSIONAL SHOW(S) YOU'VE SEEN: Living in NY, I saw SO many. I'd say the absolute worst was the preview performance of Legs Diamond starring Peter Allen. Ew.
BEST COLLEGE SHOW(S) YOU'VE SEEN: Hair at BW.
BEST AMATEUR/COMMUNITY SHOW(S) YOU'VE SEEN: I was very impressed by the youth theater version of Into the Woods at Cassidy
BEST HIGH SCHOOL SHOW(S) YOU'VE SEEN: Oy.
ONSTAGE, HAVE YOU EVER...
a) Been killed? Yes as Nancy in Oliver! and commited suicide in Reefer Madness
b Been drunk / stoned? stoned in Reefer Madness, never drunk actually.
c) Played someone half your age? Yes. Moby Dick.
d) Played someone twice your age? Yes, but not since high school
e) Cried? Oh yeah.
g) Driven a car? Yes :) as Hildy in On the Town
h) Been drenched? in blood... as Agnes in Agnes of God
i) Been in a dream sequence? no
j) Been kissed? I'm not the ingenue type... so twice, I think. In Baby and On the Town. Maybe a few more but those come to mind
IF YOU WERE ON BROADWAY RIGHT NOW, WHAT SHOW WOULD YOU WANT TO BE IN AND WHAT ROLE WOULD YOU PLAY?: any role in Spelling Bee or Elphaba in Wicked (I know, but still!)
Subject : don't hurt the wall because the wall will hurt you more
Posted Date: : Sep 28, 2005 3:11 AM
This is just horrible. I'm sitting here on my desktop with the DVD of the Beck Center version of Reefer Madness playing on my laptop trying to extract the audio from a scene. Is it bad that I keep re-watching the scene where I kill my ex-boyfriend on stage and rip his heart out while singing the last note?
And Sharron my love, since he's officially an asshole (and has been for a while now...) can he lose the "sexiest straight man in Cleveland theater" award? We can give it to Phil.
I'm really not trying to be vain by watching myself over and over again, I just really like that part. ;)
Subject : my agency gives me a headache
Posted Date: : Sep 28, 2005 5:33 PM
It's not their fault, of course, but I had an audition today for a commercial and a voice over and now I have a huge headache. But if all goes well, I'd be paid good money just for the sound of my voice... Hmmm. Nice.
For all interested and adventurous parties, I'll be karaoking tonight at Panini's in Lakewood to celebrate Mr. Sternfeld's birthday. Not until around eleven, but probably until the place closes. Stop by.
Subject : you don't have to hover, you don't have to leave
Posted Date: : Sep 29, 2005 3:06 AM
sorry... read that on the back of a bathroom door tonight at Panini's. Thanks to the many, many beers, shots by friends (thanks Dave and Quentin) and shots by random men, I'm trashed.
This is something that has gone on since I first started theater and I've never understood. Only after people hear me sing, they're COMPLETELY into me. Why is that? After almost every song I sang tonight, there was some random guy at the bar ready with a shot.
First off, I don't go to bars to hook up. It's just not in me. So I show up tonight in a t-shirt, jeans and birkenstocks not looking to impress anyone. After my first song, I got a few eyes and later some chit-chat. Then after my second song, here come the shots. Really, guys? Why am I so appealing after you've heard me do what I live to do?
I had a crush on a senior guy my freshman year in high school who never knew I exsisted. My junior year I had the starring role in the school musical. Next thing you know, he's asking me out for dinner and wanting to know what I'm all about. Can anyone explain this to me?
I'm not singing to get laid or to get attention. I sing because I have to. If I don't sing or play music every day I would wither up and die. Why does it cause a commotion?
Subject : i have a 12-pack of Mountain Dew and a mission...
Posted Date: : Sep 29, 2005 9:02 PM
I finally got all the pictures I need and am ready to dig into the wedding slideshow. To anyone who feels like keeping me company until 3 in the morning, I'm game.
Subject : my heart aches
Posted Date: : Sep 30, 2005 9:45 PM
Sometimes when I'm watching a movie and it gets to the end and the characters are in love, kissing that beautiful requisitory passionate kiss... my heart beats fast and my palms ache. There are a few songs that make this happen. "Just Wait" and "Yours" by Blues Traveler come to mind, only because I'm listening to them right now. I've always thought that when this happens, that it's... right. And yet, I've never experienced this in my own love life. Someone who's kiss just blows me away and changes my world in an instant. Maybe my expectations for love are too high. Is it wrong to want someone who sweeps me off my feet?
Subject : road trip
Posted Date: : Oct 1, 2005 5:27 PM
I'm off to Columbus for the weekend for my brother's wedding reception. I can still be reached via cell if you miss me.
P.S. Andrew: don't shave your head.
Subject : back in the saddle again
Posted Date: : Oct 4, 2005 1:51 AM
The weekend in Columbus was fabulous. Got to my brother's house around 8:30 and ironed table runners until around 2. Got up early Sunday morning to shower and start decorating the reception hall. Once the reception started, I was sent away for a bit to retrieve the wedding video, but once I was back I started pounding the drinks. Hmm. Well, I don't remember a lot of the night (which is odd for me because I usually remember everything). I do remember doing "family shots" with Zach and Adam near the end of the evening and missing the cake cutting/eating because we were outside talking. Memory starts to fade as I was laid out by the front door while everyone else was un-decorating. Oops. Nice long sleep last night, grease-absorbing food today and a two-hour road trip find me back at home and ready to face Cleveland again. Effing Cleveland. ;)
Subject : i'm a huge teapot
Posted Date: : Oct 4, 2005 5:45 PM
First read-through for Beauty and the Beast tonight at the Beck, so I'm sure I'll see some of your bright and smiling faces. :)
I wasn't really looking forward to this break, but now that it's nearing the end, I will miss my free time. Tonight is just a teaser and "real" rehearsals don't start until the 19th for me, but I'm going to miss the option of picking up and leaving town or actually spending time with friends without checking my rehearsal schedule first. I'm sure that once I'm back in show-mode, all will be good, but I'm starting to miss my life a little right now.
Subject : 50 things girls want guys to know
Posted Date: : Oct 5, 2005 10:16 PM
1. Saying "I love you" immediately before, during, or following sex doesn't count.
2. Real men drive stick shift.
3. I will leave if you lie.
4. You are cute in raglan-sleeved T-shirts (two-toned baseball undershirts).
5. I'm convinced I'm pregnant and obsess about it for a minimum of 24 to 48 hours before my period, even when I have no rational reason to think so.
6. I love it when you hug me from behind and whisper in my ear.
7. "Fine" is never an appropriate response when I ask you how I look.
8. Most of the time when I fantasize, it's about you.
9. I'm terrified of becoming my mother, even though I admire her.
10. I get turned on simply seeing that I have an e-mail from you.
11. I expect you to call me.
12. Only rock stars are allowed to wear leather pants.
13. I'm scared of losing my independence.
14. I'm more forgiving of you than I really should be.
15. Oral sex is your get-out-of-the-doghouse-free card. Manolo Blahnik shoes also do the trick.
16. You did something bad. I seem cool with it. I'm not. (See directly above.)
17. If I'm not having sex with you, I'm... a. ...having a fat day. b. ...not feeling "connected" to you. c. ...blackmailing you to get something I want.
18. Shoes determine whether you're fashionable or not.
19. I own a Debbie Gibson CD, and I'm not afraid to use it.
20. When I compare my flabby tummy to a kangaroo pouch, say nothing.
21. A man I love plans the occasional fancy-schmancy dress-up date and impromptu weekend getaways, and he buys my favorite candy in advance when we're just going to the movies.
22. You look hot in hooded clothing items.
23. You should never tell me what to do.
24. If I slept over, you owe me breakfast.
25. My breasts love much licking and sucking.
26. If you ask me out directly, I will say yes.
27. I'm very impressed when you ask for my advice.
28. I'm unimpressed with a man who doesn't take the lead.
29. When in doubt, go with the shirt that matches your eye color.
30. I want to be Madonna.
31. Women get urinary-tract infections easily, so watch (and wash) your fingers.
32. I'm in heaven when you hold my hand.
33. You're sexy when you're shaving, fixing things, wearing a white T-shirt and jeans, driving, eating a peach, holding a baby.
34. I need to hear how you feel about me. Often. Tell me now.
35. Surprises, especially gifts for moi = more loving.
36. I want to be the best thing that ever happened to you--and for you to recognize this.
37. If I'm not feeling loved, I will start looking....
38. Discussion of ex-gf's and ex-bf's should be avoided at all times.
39. I like it when you tell me what you're thinking, even if you don't know yourself.
40. Celebrating our anniversary, even if it's only been a few months, earns major bonus points.
41. I love it when you're sweaty.
42. It's best to consult your gal pals for gift ideas.
43. A lady should always be greeted with kisses.
44. I like porn.
45. I love holding your bum in the palms of my hands.
46. Even nice girls like hushed dirty talk in public.
47. It's cheating as soon as you're doing something with her that you wouldn't want me to see, hear, read...
48. For the record: I'd rather you break up with me than cheat.
49. I remember everything about our relationship.
50. You should know all this and more without my telling you.
Subject : from the best website ever...
Posted Date: : Oct 5, 2005 11:45 PM
Condutor: If you would like to operate the doors, please take the test to become a conductor. In the meantime, please release the doors, because there are a lot of people on this train who would like to get to work on time.
--A train
Conductor: Ladies and Gentleman, I know this is a C train, but we're sitting on the A track! I repeat: Yes, this is a C train as in Choo-choo charlie, but right now I'm an Apple! Go figure!
--C train
Conductor: And now, everybody turn around and look at the guy who is holding the door and preventing the train from leaving the station.
--R train
Conductor: There will be another train following this one for your convenience. In the meantime please relax, have a seat...enjoy the open bar.
--W Train
Subject : ben folds makes me happy
Posted Date: : Oct 6, 2005 7:38 PM
i was in a pissy ass mood earlier, but feel better since listening to this cd. I love music and how it can transform any part of myself.
okay... specifically love his rendition of "tiny dancer." joy.
Subject : it's okay. i'm a patient person
Posted Date: : Oct 8, 2005 1:11 PM
Ugh. I really hate Cleveland sometimes. It's gone from 80 degrees 2 days ago to rainy, windy and 52 right now. I broke down and turned my heater on today, so it's all of 65 in my house. Whoopie. Good thing I have the most fabulous dog ever. I've been awake for an hour and she's just waiting for me to take her out. Of course, I'm getting lots of stares, but she's waiting all the same.
Going to the HiFi for vanityCrash's cd release party tonight. Be there or be pathetic, people. Looking forward to seeing all the angels and avoiding all those fucking demons.
Subject : cleveland? really?
Posted Date: : Oct 8, 2005 9:09 PM
This news story was in the Plain Dealer on Thursday: Cleveland touted as 'most livable' U.S. city. Okay... Well, I just finished watching an episode of Cops filmed in Cleveland. I blame my brother for making me watch it, but I've never laughed at that show so hard in my life. Where else can you see a mother trying to choke her son, a woman running around with a .45 and her mother's ashes and a naked man on PCP breaking into a school to steal fire extinguishers who fights people off with a hose all in a half hour? Come on!
Subject : vanityCrash
Posted Date: : Oct 9, 2005 1:18 PM
The show last night was amazing. vanityCrash finally went on around 11 and played for two hours. Love it. I've seen them many times, but it's been about a year since my last glam rock extravaganza with the band. A little drama (not me, them), but what's a rock band without drama. Thanks boys for a great show and thanks to Kristin, Amanda, Jessie, Koula, Mo and Ian for the extra fun. :)
Now to cleaning and laundry. I hate Sundays. ;)
Subject : so, yeah
Posted Date: : Oct 10, 2005 6:48 PM
The line from Spelling Bee keeps coming into my head:
Life is random and unfair
Life is Pandemonium
Hmm. Anyhoo. I really need to get a new job. As much as I really love serving (yes, I actually do), I can no longer depend on other people's bad math skills to make ends meet. It's starting to depress me which is odd because I'm usually an optimistic, glass-half-full kind of girl.
I'm saving up to buy a new vehicle (yay) and basically sold my car today. He actually wanted it on the spot, but I told him he'd have to wait until I get my Jeep. God bless his little Columbian-immigrant heart, he doesn't understand the process of buying a car. I explained about the title, license plates and all. He really thought he could just give me money and he could drive it away.
Is garlic bad for dogs? I just gave the spotted princess some overly garlicy hummus and am now wondering if my table scrap giving has gone too far... or is it the other way around? Is garlic good for dogs?
Somebody spell crayon.
Subject : random thoughts... this must be love
Posted Date: : Oct 10, 2005 11:47 PM
Why do guys like bitches? I'm not talking in terms of the ghetto, "yo, she's my bitch," but more like "hello... what a bitch." Are most of the men out there so masochistic that they need someone to constantly berate them? Is it that the sex is so much better when you secretly hate and love someone at the same time? Not to be vain, but I'm a nice girl. I go out of my way to make other people's lives easier. Not that I don't "look out for number one," but life is too short to live with such hate in your heart. It's just easier to try and make people happy. I would literally give a friend the shirt off my back if they wanted it. Somehow, almost everyone I've gone out with has gone on to date an absolute bitch on wheels after me. I realize I'm generalizing... not EVERYONE. I said almost everyone. At one point, I tried to be a bitch and be mean and not care... didn't really work out. Not so much. Am I too nice? Any help in this matter would be greatly appreciated.
In more random thoughts. Fucking Yankees. There's a whole story about why I'm a Yankees fan which I won't go into here... If you know me, I've probably told you and now you understand. Long story short, I moved here from NYC blah blah blah. So Bartolo Colon is dispensed of early enough... think we've got a good fighting chance, eh? BZZZZZZZZZ. Wrong. Somehow, the Yankees fuck it up again. This must be love because no matter how much they fuck up, I always come back for more and hope for the best.
I bought a lighter leash today. Funny how only $1.99 made me so happy for such a long period of time.
Since I'm saving up for a new car (well, Jeep... and new to me) and a new iPod, I'm officially accepting donations to the "Make Amiee's Life Prettier Fund." Any amount, any donation is much appreciated. Also includes buying me beer when we're out. That's appreciated too.
Last thought. I REALLY need a new job. I'm putting myself out there if you have anything for me.
Subject : why lie?
Posted Date: : Oct 12, 2005 2:31 AM
***although the names have been removed and the subject matter "fuzzied," all situations are true. i'm not a liar***
So. My friend, we'll call him Boy, told me something recently. It wasn't said in confidence, but as a matter of conversation, a matter of fact. I was happy for Boy. To share in Boy's happiness, I told Girl. Again... matter of conversation... in passing... blah blah blah. As a friend of Boy, I was sure Girl was going to be happy. Well, not so much.
Girl tells me that she knows what Boy has told me is untrue. I think... okay... doesn't really make a huge difference in my life, so whatever. But this makes Girl really mad. Girl has become a good friend of Boy and doesn't understand why Boy is lying to me. She asks Boy. Boy says that I am mistaken and have my facts wrong.
That's not the whole thing, but I'll just stop there. a. I'm not stupid. b. I was not drunk. c. I'm not deaf. Don't play me, don't play Girl. ESPECIALLY not Girl. I'm fierce, but Girl is deadly. Just a warning.
***i realize not knowing the back story (and you probably won't), this might be confusing. all apologies.***
Subject : crying makes my eyes look smokey
Posted Date: : Oct 14, 2005 3:19 PM
but i sure as hell don't feel any better
Subject : hmm. interesting
Posted Date: : Oct 16, 2005 12:18 PM
I love dreams and hate them at the same time. You know when you wake up and are still trying to figure out if it's real? Hmm. Well, I had a few interesting dreams last night. Two involving someone I've known for just over a year, I guess. The first dream was niiiice. I don't mean nice in a "we were picking flowers kind of way," but an "ooh that feels good kind of way." I woke up, sat for a few minutes, turned on the tv, and thought. Didn't see that one coming. I laid back down and whadda know, but another dream with him in it. This time I was going to a party at his house. He met me at the door but, with the thousands of people in attendance (it was thousands... odd), we lost each other. I didn't know anyone else there, so I mingled for what seemed like hours and finally decided to go looking for him. And... scene. Very interesting. Oh... in the dream I found him.
Subject : please let it happen...
Posted Date: : Oct 19, 2005 3:31 PM
I have been on too many interviews this week. Starting at 8 every morning and ending at 5 on most days, I'm in one of my business suits while smiling and shaking hands. I have a second interview on Friday with some law firm (all the names sound the same to me), so I'm pulling for that one. I don't really care how much money they offer me. As long as I can pay my bills (especially my rent... Bob Navis is a patient man) and live comfortably, I could give a rat's ass what I make. Keep me in your thoughts. :)
I'm starting Beauty and the Beast rehearsals tonight. My schedule is actually very light, considering I'm a "principal." It seems, however, that all of my rehearsals are falling on Wednesday nights. Not happy about this because it interrupts my Lost obsession. I will be skipping karaoke and running straight home to watch it. Is that pathetic, or what?
Subject : feeling a little guilty
Posted Date: : Oct 20, 2005 4:13 PM
I started smoking about 10 years ago. One of the worst decisions of my life, but I'm an addict now. Can't help it. I always said I would stop when I decided to settle down with a husband and family. I think since I'm nowhere near that, my attempts to quit have been, well, not good. I just bought these new cigarettes that emit 80% less secondhand smoke and don't make my clothes, hair, house smell. I've actually cut back a lot from what I used to smoke... I guess quitting (again) is the natural progression. I'm just a little unsure because I don't want to fail again. Sounds silly, but I don't trust myself around cigarettes. The longest time I quit was a couple of years ago. This was the height of what I consider my alcohol period... my ex, Beth Wood, Ian Atwood, Jessie May, Betsy Kahl, Dan Folino and I were at the bar almost every night (okay, every night...). Actually, Betsy and Dan were the "sometimes Y" of the situation. I was going well not smoking and yet being in Cronies. Then the Salem reps showed up and started giving out free packs of cigarettes. Well, I'm not really one to turn down a gift, so I signed up. Convinced myself for about two weeks that I could be a social smoker. Well, not so much. I've been going strong since then. I can blame everyone and everything I want, but I know it's all my fault and I'm the only one who can change that. I keep coming up with excuses why I haven't quit. I can't quit during a show because I'll get sick. Like pneumonia sick. So I have to wait until after Beauty and the Beast no matter what. Ugh. Hate this.
Sorry for that long and rambling paragraph.
I've almost finished putting together my Halloween costume for this year. I was going to go with my stand-by of Sally from A Nightmare Before Christmas, but I had a new idea that's relatively easy. I will be absolutely amazed if someone recognizes what I am, but I'm doing it all the same. Pat Catan's is my best friend right now.
My poor puppy (well, 9-year-old puppy) is starting her svengali eyes to walk her, so I must obey.
Subject : clarification on my previous post
Posted Date: : Oct 20, 2005 10:48 PM
the guilt i referred to has nothing to do with smoking. but i appreciate and thank you for your words of encouragement, but i'm not really wanting to hear the "yay amiee" speeches right now. i'm months away from quitting.
Subject : my night in
Posted Date: : Oct 23, 2005 1:25 AM
My night in and alone with my dog has turned into a bit of a bust. I rented some movies and planned to cuddle on the couch with Annie, but she met me at the door limping tonight. After so many years of this dog, I'm used to her fake-limps. It sounds silly, but she'll limp around me and not do it around anyone else. Because I'm the mommy and she wants sympathy from me.
I've seen this so often in many different ways. My mom runs a day-care out of her house in Mentor. She's been doing this since I was 5, so even though I'm the youngest child in my family, I've been around kids my whole life. For my mom, these kids are angels. They try to act up every once and a while, but she doesn't stand for it. I think that they respect her even more because of that. But as soon as a parent walks through the door, the kid is crying, pushing, shoving, pulling hair, biting... all the things they would never think to do around my mom, they're doing because their parent is there. It's old school; kids have been doing it for years and will do it as long as the parent lets them.
Anyhoo, a little tangent, but I'm still in my story - more or less. So Miss Annie comes limping up to me tonight and I checked out her paw to make sure it was okay. Somehow, while I was at the Beck and the Rush for all of 5 hours today, she managed to scrape some skin off the side of a pad on her front left paw. I let it go for a while to see what she'd do, but after I walked her I decided to clean it out. Well, that's not very good because she wants to lick everything after I clean it. So after dousing it in peroxide and anti-biotic, I put a big bandage on it that she's been trying to get off all night. In between getting the bandage off, she's glaring at me, huffing around and banging her chair against the wall. As soon as she thinks I'm looking away, she starts gnawing at the bandage again. I know it's for her own good, but can't explain that to her.
If I can't handle this dog, how will I handle children? Teasing, of course. I'm sure that dealing with a 9-year-old deaf Dalmatian is a lot harder than dealing with a 9-year-old child that has selective hearing. ;)
Back to my couch. I might be alone with my companion staring at me from across the room, but I'm doing to do this night in, damnit!!
Subject : i'm so happy right now
Posted Date: : Oct 24, 2005 11:42 PM
It's completely illegal, but I have a DVD of March of the Penguins. I saw it in the theater and I will buy it when it comes out on DVD, but for now I have this one. I'm going to carry my portable DVD player so I can be instantly happy. This movie makes me forget anything bad that's going on in my life. I can't help but smile.
Subject : religion AND politics? wha????
Posted Date: : Oct 25, 2005 11:27 PM
I'm not going to go off, but stop right now if you don't want to hear it.
As I said in my other blog before I abandoned it, I grew up in the church. This is merely my interpretation of the following scripture:
The Bible: Psalms 1
1 Blessed is the man who walks not in the counsel of the wicked, nor stands in the way of sinners, nor sits in the seat of scoffers; 2 but his delight is in the law of the LORD, and on his law he meditates day and night. 3 He is like a tree planted by streams of water, that yields its fruit in its season, and its leaf does not wither. In all that he does, he prospers. 4 The wicked are not so, but are like chaff which the wind drives away. 5 Therefore the wicked will not stand in the judgment, nor sinners in the congregation of the righteous; 6 for the LORD knows the way of the righteous, but the way of the wicked will perish.
Me: Take care of your own. Fix what is going on around you and it will spread to all areas.
Deeper translation: Some people say that you need to learn to love yourself before you can be loved in return or can learn to love another. Great. I believe this chapter of Psalms can extend even further. America. Take care of your own. I understand that we have the money, the "power," and therefore the "duty" to take care of other countries when they can't defend themselves. But here's the thing. Wouldn't a portion of that money be better spent on, hmm... say healthcare? helping out the homeless? feeding the needy? Call me liberal all you want, but I just feel like if we take care of our own, we can better take care of those surrounding us.
But that's not the case. As a pin my brother has says: "Liberty and Justice for All... (offer not available in all areas, prices subject to change)."
Subject : the most stupid afternoon ever
Posted Date: : Oct 27, 2005 6:45 PM
I decided on my Halloween costume without really reviewing the work I had to put into it. It's not terribly difficult, but just time consuming. I couldn't find a dark green bra ANYWHERE, so I decided to dye one. I'm not a fan of dyeing things and this afternoon just goes to show that I'm not terribly good at it. Scratch that. I'm good at it, I'm just slow. After 3 hours of boiling water, soaking, rinsing, ironing... I'm finally finished. I sure as hell hope this is worth it. ;)
I'm going to three parties this weekend: Kim and Dan Bush on Friday, Joe Kenderes on Saturday and Pierre Brault/Brian Marshall on Monday. All that fun and good times with some rehearsing in between!
I have another interview at the law firm on Tuesday morning (cross your toes for me). Prospects look pretty good.
In other news, I'm getting a lot of pressure from friends and associates (read: everyone I know) to audition for Love, Janis at the Hanna. I have mixed feelings about this. First... I can't even put into words how much I love Janis Joplin, LOVE the script for this show, love love love. But I think my confidence level is just a little down right now. It's like I would be hopping out of my small-sized pond and trying to thrive in a medium-sized one. So many times, I sit and daydream about the possibilites of a certain situation, but am let down when the outcome is nothing like I hoped. This situation? I get the job, get my equity card and get paid $600/week to wail Janis every night. Wow. If I do get it, I would have to drop Beauty and the Beast. I've never dropped a show. Can't imagine doing that as a principal. We're only a week into rehearsal, but I still feel like that's the shittiest thing I could ever do. Is it bad that I really want this, but at the same time I really hope I don't get it?
Subject : i am cool
Posted Date: : Oct 28, 2005 5:39 PM
you are the "you suck, and that's sad"
happy bunny. your truthful, but can be a bit
brutal.
which happy bunny are you?
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funny because that was actually my first introduction to happy bunny. i found this t-shirt in a store. probably hot topic.
all work and no sex makes amiee a dull girl
all work and no sex makes amiee a dull girl
all work and no sex makes amiee a dull girl
all work and no sex makes amiee a dull girl
all work and no sex makes amiee a dull girl
all work and no sex makes amiee a dull girl
all work and no sex makes amiee a dull girl
all work and no sex makes amiee a dull girl
all work and no sex makes amiee a dull girl
all work and no sex makes amiee a dull girl
all work and no sex makes amiee a dull girl
all work and no sex makes amiee a dull girl
all work and no sex makes amiee a dull girl
all work and no sex makes amiee a dull girl
all work and no sex makes amiee a dull girl
all work and no sex makes amiee a dull girl
all work and no sex makes amiee a dull girl
all work and no sex makes amiee a dull girl
all work and no sex makes amiee a dull girl
all work and no sex makes amiee a dull girl
sorry. just getting that out. had a shining moment.
friggin' daylight savings this weekend. at least we gain an hour. isn't that right? spring forward... fall back.... yes. faboo.
Subject : i made it
Posted Date: : Oct 30, 2005 1:18 AM
Last night I went to the Bush's Halloween party. Somehow, despite all the alcohol I could drink, I was not affected. Went to the HiFi to see Vanity Crash. Even though the crowd was insanely small, the show was still great. Had some wonderful conversation after until the early-wee hours of the morning. (thanks again, j.) It was nice to know that through it all, there are still people out there that speak the truth and really want to hear it as well. One of the best conversations I've had in quite some time.
Tonight's party... Well, I got home around 1 am, pre turning clocks back thankyouverymuch. Happy to report that I made it back from the party with all costume pieces in check. The bra, underwear, shirt, shirt and garter (yes, Jason, I still have your garter 
) are all on me while I'm carrying the green tights and wig (friggin' hot tub -- my hair smells like chlorine). Yes... and for Dennis? I still have the stuffed white dog. Still managed to hold on to it.
Tonights party was.... interesting. Skipping over the hot tub and anything that happened after, I was happy to help my love Cory through her first drunken experience. Thank God I've had friends help me though that before... "do you want more bread, more water?" Love you Cory and you're the most beautiful woman ever. Yes, Patrick thinks so too.... No worries little bird girl. 
Interesting and random thoughts that are running though my head as I'm typing this. I'm not going to go into them...
Odd party in that I was completely through my bottle of wine by 8:30pm and was toasted beyond belief by 10. Luckily, I sobered up enough to drive home. I'm happy to be here with my spotted love and to cuddle with her in my bed with a movie playing. Interesting night, but I'm happy that I'm home.
Side note: somehow I managed to make my Halloween costume more sluty than it was last night. Pictures to come as soon as I get them developed. Damn.
Slainte.
Subject : stars and the moon
Posted Date: : Oct 30, 2005 11:33 AM
I met a man without a dollar to his name
Who had no traits of any value but his smile
I met a man who had no yearn or claim to fame
Who was content to let life pass him for a while
And I was sure that all I ever wanted
Was a life like the movie stars led
And he kissed me right here, and he said,
"I'll give you stars and the moon and a soul to guide you
And a promise I'll never go
I'll give you hope to bring out all the life inside you
And the strength that will help you grow.
I'll give you truth and a future that's twenty times better
Than any Hollywood plot."
And I thought, "You know, I'd rather have a yacht."
I met a man who lived his life out on the road
Who left a wife and kids in Portland on a whim
I met a man whose fire and passion always showed
Who asked if I could spare a week to ride with him
But I was sure that all I ever wanted
Was a life that was scripted and planned
And he said, "But you don't understand —
"I'll give you stars and the moon and the open highway
And a river beneath your feet
I'll give you day full of dreams if you travel my way
And a summer you can't repeat.
I'll give you nights full of passion and days of adventure,
No strings, just warm summer rain."
And I thought, "You know, I'd rather have champagne."
I met a man who had a fortune in the bank
Who had retired at age thirty, set for life.
I met a man and didn't know which stars to thank,
And then he asked one day if I would be his wife.
And I looked up, and all I could think of
Was the life I had dreamt I would live
And I said to him, "What will you give?"
"I'll give you cars and a townhouse in Turtle Bay
And a fur and a diamond ring
And we'll be married in Spain on my yacht today
And we'll honeymoon in Beijing.
And you'll meet stars at the parties I throw at my villas
In Nice and Paris in June."
And I thought, "Okay."
And I took a breath
And I got my yacht
And the years went by
And it never changed
And it never grew
And I never dreamed
And I woke one day
And I looked around
And I thought, "My God...
I'll never have the moon."
Subject : the beauty of this bitch
Posted Date: : Oct 31, 2005 12:09 AM
I only have rehearsal this week on Tuesday night. All others free. What the hell will I do with myself? So far Laurel and I are going to dinner at Three Birds on Wednesday. Anyone else want a time-slot? Cory? Movie night??
Alrighty then. Here are the only pictures from this weekend that I'm willing to share.
Me and Miss Cory from Saturday night.
The fun group from the Bush's party: Kimmy, Laurel, Kristin, Me and Sandra
Subject : nous avons le temps
Posted Date: : Oct 31, 2005 11:23 PM
I decided to bail on the Halloween parties for tonight. I sat on the porch, smoked, drank and watched the kids go by. I don't have any candy (just a bad idea in this house), so I kept my porch light off and watched and listened. Hmm. Reading back on this post, it sounds a bit creepy. Okay. A lot creepy. ;)
What I observed: it was nice to see all the kids running around the neighborhood; I don't understand grabbing a plastic bag and trick-or-treating in your street clothes; the police were around my neighborhood like never before (thanks to my Cleveland tax dollars); my landlord completely got into the spirit and pulled the wood-burning outdoor fireplace into the front yard... had music playing... the works; kids love my dog and she loves them... heard "Dalmatian! Dalmatian!!!" about 50 times as I was walking her near the beginning of the trick-or-treating, so Annie was over-pet during her normal walk and some kids were over-kissed by her; the kids in my neighborhood are effing cute... great costumes. my favorite was a little 2-year-old girl dressed as a wolf.
Subject : i'm pretty fucking frustrated
Posted Date: : Nov 1, 2005 3:12 PM
I went for my third job interview today at Javich Block & Rathbone. I was already having a bad morning... let's just say, NEVER live with an alcoholic. It's just not fun. So. I was 3 minutes late because of house drama today -- not a lot, but REALLY upsets me because I don't like to be late for anything -- and was sitting to prepare myself for all the standard interviewing quesitons. Halfway through the interview, I was introduced to fellow team members, asking them questions... all seemed fine.
*cigarette break. i'm still a little mad about this...*
I'm calm now. So nearing the end of the interview, we start talking about parking, insurance, working hours... Me: Um, 10-7? Possibly 8pm every night? Apparently, this position is the later shift and must be available until as late as 7:30 or 8 every night to upload the last part of the data to the client. Great, but I was under the impression that the job was 9-6. So the interviewer asked me flat-out if this was something I could commit to. I had to tell her no. She then asked me to choose between doing shows -- current and future -- so I could be available to do this work. I just couldn't do it. I can't stop doing theater, so I turned the job down. She told me to think about it for a while and let her know, but I don't need to think about it. There were other things that made me cringe: working weekends and late, late nights at month's end.
She said there was another position opening up where the hours aren't as demanding that should would like to consider me for. I said that would be wonderful and ended the interview. Did I just make a mistake by turning that down???
Subject : the mixed tape
Posted Date: : Nov 2, 2005 6:49 PM
Because I was having a bad day yesterday, my beautiful friend Bevan decided to make me a mixed tape. Okay, well it's a CD, but mixed CD just sounds weird. Since he's driving to Dayton tonight, I decided to return the favor. I haven't made a mixed tape since I don't know when and I had so much fun. I limited myself to the CDs that I had in my car because if I opened it up to the 500 or so in my collection, it would have been a box set. I decided that, if I'm still working the same lame-ass job come Christmas, y'all are getting homemade CDs for Christmas.
Have I mentioned lately what a complete dork I am?
Subject : oy vey
Posted Date: : Nov 3, 2005 3:57 PM
Karaoke last night was out of control. Damn you Zac and your shots!! ;) I was drunk like Karen Carpenter at an open bar. Must go nap now in order to meet Laurel for dinner tonight. She wants to drink champagne... I just want to sleep.
Subject : i'm fun when alcohol is involved
Posted Date: : Nov 4, 2005 5:42 PM
Most of the time, I spend the night home alone on my couch with the pup... watching movies, knitting (yes, I know Keli), reading books... But this week is, well, oy. Wednesday's karaoke extravaganza was beyond fun. Thursday night, Laurel and I went to Three Birds to eat and also had a few VERY STRONG martini's, followed by some wine at the Rush. Tonight is another night out. I'm looking forward to my boring self on Saturday night.
My palms are aching and my heart is racing. If you're a regular reader of my blog, you'll know that it's a good thing and amazingly rare...
I'm over-emo. Sunday in the Park with George gets me every time. I'm sitting here listening to it and crying. It's just the song "We Do Not Belong Together." So many memories.
Subject : sometimes a girl just needs to be licked
Posted Date: : Nov 5, 2005 6:19 PM
At the end of last night, I somehow made it online. When I was on AIM with Andrew and couldn't even type the phrase "oh god, i'm so drunk" without messing up 4 times, I canned the whole idea and went to pass out.
Perhaps the trouble started at Cronies with multiple beers and shots or maybe it was at Pickwick and Frolic where I started drinking Cosmos. What I know: it was a good thing I dropped my car off at my house earlier in the evening; Koula and I smoked our way through 2 packs of Parliament Ultra Lights; we caused a little drama at Pickwick just by showing up; because of our fun, Dan only got 1-1/2 hours of sleep; and he was making fun of my hangover all through rehearsal today.
I think the Cosmos were the trouble. Damn Cosmos...
Note for only one person: I need to apologize for the drunken texting... especially allowing that picture of Koula and me to be sent from my phone. Hope I didn't traumatize your evening. ;)
Subject : good god
Posted Date: : Nov 6, 2005 11:46 AM
I'm so fucking nervous. Just go do it, right? Sounds easy...
Shit.
Subject : scream
Posted Date: : Nov 6, 2005 3:16 PM
I want to scream. I need to release this energy that's pent up inside my chest. So many visions running through my head and my hands won't stop shaking. I can't scream. I have to hold it in.
For those that know me (truly, not in the artifical way), I'm generally a very happy person. I let things slide off my back that most would take to heart. I'm easy going, but at the same time you can't walk all over me. I'm amazingly optimistic about life, even though I've been handed some pretty shitty cards over the years.
Right now, this moment, I'm trying to wipe away my optimism. What if I don't get what I want? If I protect myself now and don't think it will happen, I won't hurt so much. I'm not just referring to what I did today (and it went VERY well... going again tomorrow), but life in general.
I see a vision of my future and what I want it to be. That vision has changed so much in the past 10 years. I went from wanting to be married with kids, to being a single 30-something with a dog. I love my life right now, but still can't let go of my ultimate goals.
Subject : wasting time
Posted Date: : Nov 7, 2005 5:39 PM
I stole this from someone's blog... I don't even know her, but I needed something to occupy my time. :)
1. Do you have a completely irrational fear: I don't like to get my face wet... so stupid and limits my swimming abilities more than anything else.
2. What is the little physical habit that gives away your insecure moments: I play with my claddagh ring.
3. Are you a pyromaniac: Not so much anymore. But I'm a smoker, so fire in and of itself does something for me.
4. Do you have too many love interests: No. I'm good at putting my blinders on.
5. Do you know anyone famous: My friend Allison is on that WB show "What I Like About You." Makes me giggle every time she's on.
6. Describe your bed: Comfortable and overly-blanketed.
7. Who would play you in a movie: Probably Kate Winselet.
8. Do you know how to play poker: I'm good at Texas Hold 'Em.
9. What do you carry with you at all times: Cigarettes, lighter and chapstick.
10. What do you miss most about being a kid: I had a pretty bad childhood. **insert violins here** so not a lot. Maybe nap time, but I still do that today.
11. What is your beloved's name: Annie Sullivan.
12. Do you like their given name: I named her, so ... yeah.
13. Are you happy with your given name: Eh. It's good.
14. How much money would it take to get you to give up the Internets for one year: Not that much. I'm too obsessed as it is.
15. What color is your bedroom: I never painted it, so white.
16.What was the last song you were listening to: Down on Me by Janis Joplin.
17. Have you ever been in love: Yes.
18. Do you talk a lot: Sometimes. Depends on my mood.
19. Do you like yourself and believe in yourself: As much as I need too.
20. Do you consider yourself to be a nice person: I do.
21. Do you spend more time with your crap that Q got cut off... What?
22. What is your ideal marriage location: Elope to Vegas, then big party back home.
23. Which musical instrument do you wish you could play: I play most of them. I sucked at the violin, bassoon and oboe though.
24. Favorite fabric: Cotton.
25. Something you love and hate: Smoking.
26. What kind of bedding do you use: Some funky pink pattern from Urban Outfitters. With giant red and pink flowers. I'm such a girl.
27. What smell do you find sexy: Joop! SUCH a good cologne.
28. What's the one language you want to learn: I'd like to be better at Italian.
29. How do you eat an apple: What an odd question. I eat around the outside, then clean up the top and bottom.
30. What do you order at a bar: Either Jack and Coke or Miller Light.
31.Have you ever pierced your body parts: No. Someone else did.
32. Do you have tattoos: Yes. I love them. Getting ready for another soon...
33.Do you drive a stick: Yes. I get bored when I have to drive an automatic. Stick shift is my one requirement in a car.
34. What's one trait you hate in a person: Dishonesty.
35. What kind of watch do you wear: I don't wear a watch.
36. Do you consider yourself materialistic: Not at all.
37.What do you cook the best: Funky pasta dishes.
38. Favorite writing instrument: Um... bic pens?
39. Do you prefer to stand out or blend in: Blend in.
40. Would you ever go out dressed like the opposite sex: Sure. Why not...
41. What's one car you will never buy: A Yugo. That's all the came to mind.
42. What kind of books do you like to read: English Lit is my favorite.
43. If you won the lottery, what would you do: Spend money on a house, car... buy my friends something they've always wanted but never thought they would have.
44. How many online journals do you read regularly: I don't know... 10? Maybe...
45. What's one thing you're a loser at: Making money.
46. If you don't like a person, how do you show it: I ignore them.
47. Do you cry in front of your friends: Tend not to.
48. What kind of first impression do you think you give to people: I try to make people feel at ease with me.
49. What's one thing you like to do alone: Cry.
50.Are you a giver or a taker: Giver. Sometimes too much.
51. When's the last time you cried: Can't remember. Maybe when I was listening to Sunday in the Park with George a few days ago. ;)
52. Favorite communication method: Face-to-face.
53. How many drinks before you're tipsy: Depends on how much I've eaten or what I'm drinking. Beer takes a while.
54.Do you think you're cute: Sure. Why not.
55. Do you have problems changing clothes in front of friends: No. I've been completely naked backstage at a theater... no real modesty once you get used to that.
56.Favorite type of music: Mainly rock.
57. What is the sexiest thing the opposite sex can wear that catches your eye: I like hoodies. ;)
58. Do you like to kiss or hug: Kiss.
59. Are you a workaholic: If I like what I'm doing, then yes.
60. What are your kids names: Don't have any.
70. Do you watch a lot of television: I have been lately. I've been on a break from theater for too long, so now I record when I go to rehearsal. It's gotta stop.
71. Do you like to shop: I hate it.
72. What is your hidden talent: I can move my eyeballs seperately.
73. Would you die to save the life of someone you deeply love: In a heartbeat.
74. Do you own or lease your automobile: I own it.
75. Are your friends married or single: Mostly single.
76. How long have you known your best friend: My whole life.
77. Is he/she married: Yes.
78. Do you own a Bible: Yes.
79. What version is it: NIV.
80. Do you play chess: I'm not good at it.
81. Do you like the rain: Love it.
82. Do you like thunderstorms: Yes.
83. What's your favorite website: OverheardinNewYork.com
84.What was your weight when you were born: Don't know.
85. What time were you born: 10:27 pm.
86. What year did you graduate high school: 1991
87. What was your first job: Working at the marketing arm of an insurance company.
88. What is the strangest pet you've ever owned: I guess my beta fish, Butterfly. He was a take-home present from my brother's wedding reception a couple of months ago.
89. Do you believe in God: *sigh* Yes.
Okay. So there was 40 minutes I wasted. What now?
Subject : i like pie
Posted Date: : Nov 7, 2005 10:46 PM
People that say you can't go back again have obviously never been through a callback process... cause I am. Down to two of us.
Today was fucking awesome though. I got to wail "Ball and Chain" and "Try (Just a Little Bit Harder)" with an original member of Big Brother and the Holding Company. If nothing else, I have amazing memories from this process.
Subject : the ashtray next to my computer is overflowing. bad sign?
Posted Date: : Nov 8, 2005 11:42 PM
Thanks for all your calls today. Sorry if I was a bitch by answering the phone with "I don't know anything yet," but I'm nervous. And a bit bitchy. ;)
Today went well... These callbacks were in the Playhouse Square Rehearsal Hall rather than the Idea Center. The acoustics in the new room were DEAD. I sang the same two songs and immediately after, blurted out "this room sucks!" .. as it always happens, because I have no filter. The "panel of judges," as I like to call them, all agreed with me and Sam (Big Brother man) told the director (the only newbie to the panel) that the other room's action was amazing. Blah blah blah... the director said I sounded good, still don't know anything, and I'm stopping the stressing. So.... we'll see.
Subject : random thoughts of the day
Posted Date: : Nov 9, 2005 4:37 PM
Brought to you by Starbuck's White Mocha, Mountain Dew and Parliament Ultra Lights...
The socks I'm wearing today are thigh-high black and red stripped (only because I need to do laundry) and I just went and changed from my work clothes and they were below my knee. Explains why my calves have been itchy for a while now.
I'm all about flirting with my tables. Guys come in, stare at my cleavage, eat, drink and flirt. Fine. I'm not a flirty person, but I'm usually overly-happy and not very Amiee at work. The thing that pisses me off? Flirting with me for an hour and then leaving a 10% tip. Sorry boys, but flirting isn't going to pay my rent. Especially irritating when they come in a put their home subscriptions to the Wall Street Journal on the table to impress me. Not so much...
My dog's paw is completely healed (and has been for a while), but she still limps occationally when she wants something. Pretty funny because sometimes she forgets what paw she's supposed to limp on and picks the wrong one.
I have a 4-hour rehearsal tonight for the most boring role in all of music theater. Thank God for karaoke night. At least I'm doing something with my life.
I'm so grateful for my friends. I don't have drama in my own life, so I'm living through theirs. ;) Cheers, kids.
Subject : how to jinx yourself, by amiee collier
Posted Date: : Nov 10, 2005 5:02 PM
I should really write a book on how to not get what you want. It would be a nationwide best-seller... talk show apperances, the works. But then again, if I ever wrote one, I would somehow jinx myself and it wouldn't be popular. My friends would tell me they really want to read it when they have time. My Mom would read it, but not understand it. Hmm. Interesting idea.
Thanks to all the well-wishers, but I still haven't heard anything about the Janis auditions. Leads me to believe it's not going to happen. Part of me is proud that I took a chance and got as far as I did, part of me is happy I didn't get it and part is sad. As I said before, it was an amazing experience and I'll never forget singing with an original member of Big Brother and the Holding Company. I have to resign myself to the fact that I'm going to be a fucking teapot until New Year's Eve.
I think from now on I'm going to lead my life like those celebrities that won't reveal anything about themselves to the press. That way, I won't jinx my own happiness. So no offense to my friends if they ask me what's going on personally or professionally. You're going to get very non-descript answers and vague responses. Otherwise, I just might jinx my own happiness.
Subject : weekend update...
Posted Date: : Nov 13, 2005 11:25 PM
I bascally kept to myself this weekend, which was nice. Met Miss Laurel for dinner and drinks on Friday, but still managed to make at an early night.
Saturday, rehearsal followed by Company at B-W. I had heard some horrible things about the production, but ended up enjoying myself. Maybe it was the comps. ;)
Today I went to Max's Deli with Mom and Douglas (mmm... reuben sandwich...) and then hung with Andrew after his Fully Monty callback. Did a stumble through of Beauty and the Beast tonight and it actually went very well! There were a lot of "what scene is next??" moments, but we managed to only have a run time of 2-1/2 hours. Not bad for 3 weeks before we open.
Free preview of Beauty and the Beast is Thursday, December 1. I would suggest showing up VERY EARLY. The buzz for this show is out of control and I have a feeling the free preview will fill up in no time.
Subject : when to move on
Posted Date: : Nov 14, 2005 6:43 PM
The book of my life is full of chapters that are all diverse, crazed and unexplainable. But my question: when do we know to close a chapter and move on to the next one?
So much hurt and happiness is in each chapter. Sometimes, it seems like the chapter is closed, but it simply continues on into the next. It hurts to read back on my life and see the hope and joy I had in a situation and realize the outcome was so different than what I expected it to be.
The hardest part might be admitting that your chapter is done and it's time to move on. Pain, resentfullness and distrust linger on but, for the most part, your situation is not going to change. We can hope and hope until we're blue in the face, but as the Stones say, "you can't always get what you want, but if you try sometimes... you just might find... you get what you need." (I think this has become the silliest blog ever.)
Just because we want something, doesn't mean it's for the best. My life has been formed by the choices I've made and the choices others have made for me. Even though it didn't seem like it at the time, maybe it's all for the best?
With my shitty childhood, my messed up teens and my wild twenties, it feels like I'm starting a new chapter in life. I don't completely believe that I'm a creature of fate, but I don't feel like I have a whole hell of a lot of control over what is going to happen. I just want there to be a happy ending and I will fight like hell to have it. Don't I at least deserve a happy ending?
Subject : where are the nice guys?
Posted Date: : Nov 17, 2005 5:04 PM
Start over-emo blog.
Are there any good guys left out there? Girls joke and say that all the good ones are gay or married. Well, it's not a joke and I would even add to it. The good ones are gay, married, or have so many issues that they've turned from good to sour.
End over-emo blog.
I'm probably going to be blog-free for a while. Busy weekend ahead. Honestly, if my blogs are going to be bitchy like the little paragraph above, probably for the best that I'm not online.
Subject : probably goes without saying...
Posted Date: : Nov 18, 2005 4:12 PM
but being hungover as a server is probably the worst thing you can ever do. The smell of the food, the alcohol... just plain ew. In the Drunken Olympics last night, I placed 3rd. Dan was 1st place and Koula a very close 2nd. Glad to say I was only 3rd place because only 3 of us competed.
Subject : nothing
Posted Date: : Nov 21, 2005 6:13 PM
Nothing has really happened to make me feel this way. Then again, nothing has happened to prevent this overwhelming sadness. I'm not depressed, just a little sad. I'm sure I'll pull through, but I'm just a little... mmm... numb.
Scary, but the best way to describe it is from my favorite movie:
Holly Golightly: You know those days when you get the mean reds?
Paul Varjak: The mean reds, you mean like the blues?
Holly Golightly: No. The blues are because you're getting fat and maybe it's been raining too long, you're just sad that's all. The mean reds are horrible. Suddenly you're afraid and you don't know what you're afraid of. Do you ever get that feeling?
Paul Varjak: Sure.
Holly Golightly: Well, when I get it the only thing that does any good is to jump in a cab and go to Tiffany's. Calms me down right away. The quietness and the proud look of it; nothing very bad could happen to you there. If I could find a real-life place that'd make me feel like Tiffany's, then - then I'd buy some furniture and give the cat a name!
Subject : well.
Posted Date: : Nov 28, 2005 6:12 PM
I haven't been on the internet in a just under a week. Short summary... too many rehearsals, was sick all day Thanksgiving and never made it to my parent's house (much less out of my bed), I hate Cleveland weather. If you have any more questions about my week, please feel free to ask.
Bootay and the Beeyotch opens this weekend at the Beck. Free preview on Thursday, but come very early. After opening, I promise to be a more social creature. Actually, I've been pretty social, but only with Folino and Koula. And my dog.
Subject : fucking rehearsal
Posted Date: : Nov 29, 2005 6:08 PM
We walked out the doors at the Beck Center last night at midnight and dragged ourselves over to Cronies for "a beer." (side note... "a beer" is a way to get me to go out, but then Folino keeps buying pitchers and won't let me go home)
Midnight? Really? I fucking hate tech week.
Subject : happiness abounds
Posted Date: : Nov 30, 2005 4:47 PM
I will be rejoining the gainfully employed! I just received a job offer from ADP to work in their PC Support Department. I'm thrilled, excited, nervous, elated, but above all, I'm thankful. I'm giving two weeks notice at the restaurant and will start on December 19th.
Subject : drug test, snow and shows
Posted Date: : Dec 2, 2005 4:00 PM
I just got back from taking my pre-employment drug test. Let's just say, it's a good thing I've been such a good girl for a while now. They spring these on you and say that you have to go within 48 hours or the results are void. Love it.
Took me a fucking hour to get to Parma and about 40 minutes to get back. I love how people completely forget how to drive during the first big snowfall of the year. Unfortunately, because of the snow, I don't think I'm going to be able to wear my sexy opening night dress... will have to figure a way to work around that one.
It's finally opening night for Beauty and the Beast. I never thought this day would finally get here... especially with the worst tech week I've ever experienced. Last night's final dress/preview went really well. I adore preview audiences and their enthusiasm. It seemed like they were just waiting for something to laugh at or applaud. Maybe they were boozed up, but I'm pretty sure they liked it. ;)
Subject : one more thing
Posted Date: : Dec 2, 2005 4:16 PM
vanityCrash tonight at Verlie's Cafe. I know that a bunch of the cast are planning on running over there when the show is out, so make an appearance. See their myspace for directions and more details.
Subject : my couch missed me
Posted Date: : Dec 5, 2005 5:52 PM
**random note... if you read the blog of any other Beauty and the Beast cast member, this will sound extremely familiar**
At last. This shitty, shitty week is gone and my life is nearly mine again. After working every day and being at the theater until midnight every night, I get to remember what my house looks like (it's a mess) and what freedom is again. Sounds horribly dramatic, but it was the worst tech week I've ever experienced. No matter what happens this week, it will be like living in a dream.
My friend Dan said last night that we've seen each other every night for the past 6 weeks and he's going to miss me. I never really thought of it that way. Although it was a bad rehearsal process, it brought us all closer together and we're going to end up going to movies together during the week to make up for the time we usually spend together.
Subject : brando was a genius
Posted Date: : Dec 6, 2005 5:13 PM
When I finally re-enter the corporate world, all of the hoops I've jumped through had better be worth it. I got a call from ADP yesterday saying they were having trouble verifying my employment with Faulkner & Gray. Yeah. That's probably because since I left New York City in 1999, the company has moved, changed phone numbers and been bought out at least twice (that I know of). I tracked down a friend of mine who still works there and he gave me contact info for HR, blah blah blah, rigamarole.
I think I'm going to put my Christmas tree up tonight. I always have fun putting it up, but it's a hassle to tear down. Such a metaphor for life, huh? ;)
I've been on a Godfather kick the past couple of days. Watching the movie for the third time right now. Brando was a fucking genius and Al Pacino used to be good looking. Love it.
Subject : reviews so far
Posted Date: : Dec 7, 2005 5:14 PM
The Plain Dealer:
Beauty of 'Beast' production is that it keeps everyone happy
Tuesday, December 06, 2005
Zachary Lewis
Pleasing children with Disney's "Beauty and the Beast" is relatively easy. Pleasing their adult companions isn't. Surprisingly, this production manages to do both.
Younger folk familiar with the 1991 animated film no doubt will enjoy hearing songs that aren't in the movie and seeing their cartoon memories brought to three-dimensional life in the Beck Center's cinematic, spare-no-expense spectacle directed by Fred Sternfeld.
More mature theatergoers may not find Alan Menken's score all that enriching, but they should get a kick out of the creative, highly animated choreography by Martin Cespedes - the tavern scene, for instance, in which beer steins accessorize a robust kick line - and the large handful of talented character actors who illuminate the production.
As the beast, Dan Folino strikes exactly the right balance. He's ferocious and obnoxious at first but transforms gradually into someone genuinely likable. His hesitancy in expressing himself to Belle reveals a dramatic ability well above the amateur. He has a decent tenor voice, too.
Similarly, Natalie Green is a thoroughly ingratiating Belle, a spunky, freethinking bookworm type who can also play the rosy-cheeked princess when necessary. Her voice is generally dulcet, even on high notes, although greater pitch accuracy would be an improvement.
The many characters surrounding the leading couple range from competent to excellent. Among the latter: Larry Nehring as the French-accented Lumiere; Douglas Collier as the foppish, uptight Cogsworth; Zac Hudak as the buffoonish Lefou; Kristin Netzband as the buxom Zsa-Zsa Gabor-like feather duster; and Tracee Patterson as Madame de la Grande Bouche, the vanity chest and former opera singer.
The unofficial star of the show, though, is Gaston, Belle's would-be fiance. Josh Noble conjures this self-absorbed spirit perfectly. His plastic hair, wide, toothy grin and ceaseless posturing round out the portrayal.
In visual matters, this "Beauty," the first semiprofessional production of the show in the Cleveland area, is a complete success. Complex set pieces and props roll on- and off-stage quickly without interrupting the flow of the tale, while dozens of lavish costumes and the occasional special effect keep the eye occupied.
A large cast of technicians deserves credit for the many enchanting illusions, including scenic designer Ben Needham, lighting designer Steven Mack and Toronto-based costume designer Aimee Kluiber. Larry Goodpaster conducts the offstage orchestra.
Worry not, parents. Your kids will love it, and you might even have a good time, too.
The Scene:
Beast Unleashed
Beck Center mounts a terrific retelling of Disney's Beauty and the Beast.
By Christine Howey
There are few musical theater pleasures that can equal seeing a supremely talented cast under the guidance of a director who knows how to stage a production, from the grand sweep of crowd scenes to the tiny sparks hidden in smaller moments. Happily, this is all on display in an enthralling evening: Disney's Beauty and the Beast at the Beck Center.
Director Fred Sternfeld has assembled a kickass company of stellar performers, who turn this sturdy and family-friendly material (music by Alan Menken, lyrics by Howard Ashmen and Tim Rice, book by Linda Wolverton) into a lively and genuinely touching tribute to the humanity that goes more than skin deep. Based on the animated Disney movie about a selfish young prince who is put under a spell by a beggar woman seeking shelter, the stage version adds some depth and resonance to certain characters.
Natalie Green is lovely, fresh, and unaffected as Belle, the beauty who falls into the clutches of the Beast living in a mysterious castle in the woods. Green delivers her solos, "Home" and "A Change in Me," with clarity and a sure sense of the meaning behind the melody. And as for the Beast, suffice to say that if Dan Folino is performing in a musical somewhere, you are best advised to get in your car, jump on a bus, or hop on a pogo stick to get to the theater. Folino's Beast may be a bit shorter in stature than usual, but he wrings every tender and comedic nuance out of his book scenes. And when he sings, especially in "How Long Must This Go On?" and "If I Can't Love Her," his rich baritone paints a thoroughly involving emotional portrait.
This level of excellence is continued in the over-the-top role of the villainous Gaston, as Josh R. Noble combines a plastic Schwarzenegger grin with a Johnny Cash hairdo to ignite laughs merely with the turn of his head. When he sings his proposal to Belle, crooning, "We shall be the perfect pair/Rather like my thighs," every musical and comic note is hit with perfection. And Zac Hudak is a cringing lickspittle as Gaston's gofer, Lefou, getting knocked hither and yon in service to his master.
Also turning in fine work are the Beast's servants, who were morphed into household items in the same spell that condemned their boss. As Cogsworth and Lumiere (clock and candelabra, respectively) Douglas Collier and Larry Nehring make an amusing Laurel & Hardy duo. Aimee Collier is the teapot Mrs. Potts, and she brews a sweet rendition of the title song. Tracee Patterson is also a hoot as a pretentious chest of drawers.
Ably supported by Martin Cespedes' energetic musical staging and choreography, as well as a simple but entirely effective set by Ben Needham, director Sternfeld succeeds in creating a bountiful Beauty. Just as the Beast finally becomes the handsome prince again in a dazzling bit of stage trickery at the end, this production could transform you into a fan of Disney's familiar fare.
In short, they love us. :) And, really? Can't spell my name correctly? Lovely.
Subject : i'd like to take joey zasa up in one of these and drop him
Posted Date: : Dec 8, 2005 5:08 PM
My Godfather obsession has come to an all-time low. I'm using a quote from the worst of the movies (thank you, Sofia Coppola) just because. And, really, this is a "just because" blog. I have nothing important to say. Randomness that people won't even care about.
Another crazy-ass show weekend ahead. Show Friday night, two on Saturday and one on Sunday. Bootay and the Beeyotch is hardly worth it.
Going to see Koula's bassoon concert tonight. There will be carpooling and drinking afterwards in Lakewood. Same as last night. It's always good when I don't have to drive home from the bars.
I've had a lot of comments on my new default profile pic. Just want to note that my inhaler is tucked nicely away in my garter and I'm sure that there is a picture of me somewhere with that bottle between my legs. This is the most ladylike I was that night. Halloween + drinking games = mischief.
Subject : oh bother
Posted Date: : Dec 12, 2005 6:26 PM
Okay, so the last time I was on myspace, I was bored and changed my profile pic. Now all the scuzzy guys that stalked me when I first joined are back. Really, people. I'm not a slut and will not "show you a good time" when you're in town. In fact, you'll be lucky if I even open up your profile... it will probably just be denied.
This weekend was shitty. 4 shows in 3 days with drinking in-between. (the days, not the shows). This weekend will be worse... 5 shows in 4 days. Good thing I don't actually do any physical activity in this show.
Subject : my optimism is officially zapped
Posted Date: : Dec 13, 2005 3:45 PM
I can't believe in happy endings anymore.
My job fell through. I don't know what I'm going to do next week, but it's not going to be waiting tables at the Waterstreet Grill. Wish me and my box on the street corner a lot of luck.
Subject : tell me, while i was getting ready, did a parade go by?
Posted Date: : Dec 14, 2005 5:08 PM
Subtext of this entire blog is friends are da bomb. After crying for what seemed like (and quite possibly was) hours yesterday, Zac and Josh came over to help me put up my tree and liven my spirits. We only got 1/2 way through the ornaments, but the real job was done beautifully. (thanks, boys. i love you both) :)
The trouble (and I use that word in the non-bad way) began when Dan and Koula came over. We decided to go out and get some food because Josh hadn't eaten all day. Food lead to another bar which lead to more drinking... Christmas Ale. I'm smart enough to stay away from the stuff. I was going easy with some Cosmo's.
I got a great voice mail from Koula this morning. I won't go into all the details, but the general gist of it is "Christmas Ale is the Devil." I couldn't agree more. You get crazy looped and have the worst hangover the next day. So very worth it at the time.
Anyhoo, I'm doing better today. Less crying because I'm trying not to think about it. I'm going to take a couple of days off next week and then see what I can find. Thanks for all your support and love -- in person and online.
Subject : i just heard an 8-year-old say hell in front of his mother
Posted Date: : Dec 14, 2005 5:44 PM
I swear, times are a-changin' and it's not for the best. To this day, if I say "pissed" around my mother she says, "Amiee Elizabeth Collier. You know I don't like that word." Amazing.
Subject : you're so vain. you probably think this blog is about you.
Posted Date: : Dec 16, 2005 4:48 PM
Seriously, why are people so competitive? I've noticed a trend lately that there's not just competition, but competition in things that can be "won" by everyone. Since when can a person only have one good friend or only spend time with one person. It's all so silly. On more than one occasion, with more than one person, tempers flare, "look at me! look at me!" happens. Are we in middle school? I'm over it.
My brother and his wife (referred to as the other Amy Collier 
) are coming in town this weekend to see the show and celebrate Christmas. I'm beyond stoked. Our dogs are best friends, so Annie will be such the happy little Dalmatian because her 95-pound boyfriend will be spending time with her.
Subject : my bruise
Posted Date: : Dec 20, 2005 2:40 PM
On the way to the theater Thursday, I fell on the stairs outside of my house. It hurt. I mean REALLY REALLY hurt. I sat in the snow for a while and held back my tears (seriously... worst week of my life) and limped to my car. It hurt to walk, hurt even more to sit down, even more to drive stick shift.
Before the show, I told people that I was officially handicapped, but had no proof, just a red mark across my right butt cheek. After the show, people started to believe me. I kid you not, this bruise is about 3 inches high and 6 inches long. It has been changing colors everyday. The cast members keep asking how my ass is, keep getting a little show in the green room... it's a whole ordeal. Today it finally started turning greenish-yellow on the outsides. Still deep purple in the middle, still hurts when it touch it.
You can read whatever you want out of this blog. It's just capping off how bad my life is lately and maybe it's getting better. Still hurts and I can't see that it's improving, but under the surface there's hope. Or maybe I just have a gianormous bruise on my ass.
Subject : christmas with my family
Posted Date: : Dec 20, 2005 3:18 PM
My brothers, their wives and children and/or dogs (and Dan and Koula) all came over to my house on Sunday night for our pre-Christmas meal. Mark and Amy are going to her mom's on Christmas day, so this was it.
A. I love my family.
B. We all need to spend so much more time together.
C. Me putting on my nephew's coat (he's 4) and doing my rendition of fat guy in a little coat was just one of my favorite moments.
D. Having 3 older brothers=fun.
That's all I got.
Subject : do i believe in santa?
Posted Date: : Dec 22, 2005 3:25 PM
The fabulous Josh and I went to seek Santa out yesterday. We stood in line and were happy to point out that we weren't the only adults waiting to get our picture taken.
I found myself peeking around corners to try and see this man (I think his real name is Dave) dressed up in a Santa suit and surrounded by frightening spinning statues of toys. All the joy and excitement of my childhood came flooding back and I was giggling and giddy. I joked that when I sat on his lap, I would ask him for a boyfriend and a new computer.
We got to the front of the line and in the excitement of arranging ourselves for a picture, I didn't ask for anything. Of course, I don't think this Kris Kringle/Dave/whateverhisnameis could actually get me what I want, but I wanted to tell him all the same. Part of me is still the little girl on Santa's lap who thinks that he can make all my problems go away by just sending me a new doll or the Mickey Mouse Weeble Wobble Clubhouse. I wish it were that easy.
The result was beautiful:
Subject : thoughts i probably shouldn't share with anyone at all, but i do...
Posted Date: : Dec 25, 2005 5:22 PM
I'm at my parent's house right now. Hiding in the freezing basement so I can get some freelance work done while I have high-speed internet at my fingertips.
Above my head, I hear my 4 year old nephew Gavin chasing his 13 month old sister across the living room. I love hearing this pitter-patter sound and it reminds me of how much I've always wanted kids. Still do, but the prospect of having them is fading. At least Gavin and Brooklyn moved here from Florida. For now, I'll just have to be the favorite Aunt Amiee. ;)
Subject : ah, hedwig. how i love you.
Posted Date: : Dec 26, 2005 1:32 PM
It is clear that I must find my other half. But is it a he or a she? What does this person look like? Identical to me? Or somehow complimentary? Does my other half have what I don't? Did he get the looks? The luck? The love? Were we really separated forceably or did he just run off with the good stuff? Or did I? Will this person embarass me? What about sex? Is that how we put ourselves back together again? Or can two people actually become one again?
Subject : you like him? yeah? that's cause you never dated him.
Posted Date: : Dec 30, 2005 2:59 PM
I promised I would use that as a title to a blog. Story behind it, and yes it's something that I have said many times about one particular person.
Nerves. I have a case of nerves. But it's about something that I'm not talking about yet because it might not happen (which would be okay too). If it does, pretty effing cool, but... oh, the nerves.
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